That's how old you would be. 27 I've realized this year that there will be times I can do something for your birthday and there will be years I can't. This is a can't year. And while that should make me feel guilty, I refuse to let it because I know exactly how I remember and honor you every day. It's visible to everyone, they just don't realize it. In the 2 years and 7 months since you've been gone, I given up a few things. I've accepted some things I wanted to avoid. I might as well face it all because after losing you, there is nothing left that could be more painful. So, I gave up some stuff and accepted some stuff. But the surprising way is how that break, that shift, that canyon of change - showed up in my daily life. I bought the brightest, fun clothes. Just like I've always wanted to. I started buying clothes that felt comfortable and lightened my mood. Lots of pink. And tons of cherries. It felt right. Then it spilled over into the ho...
Sometimes it's crazy. Sometimes it's calm.