April Showers

I helped a client with a resume today. This client has come so far since I met her about a year ago. She came to me after her house burned and needed help with everything. My agency doesn't do emergency situations, so I simply helped her get a birth certificate and replaced her ID. That's all I could do, but she still stopped by several more times. Today, we built her resume and I mentioned how far she's come since I met her. She spilled another part of her story then: "I put myself in rehab because I messed up and I did NOT want that life again. When I got out, I knew I needed to come back here. I told my probation officer 'I need to be near April. She helped me so much and she is so positive.' I wouldn't be in a good place if it wasn't for you." I had no response for that. I don't feel like I did much of anything to help this client. I encouraged her when I saw her. I got her a birth certificate. I don't know how I e...

I have no idea when this journey started or what it will look like in the end, but something is moving, changing, shifting in my soul. It's a shift in my beliefs, my faith. Not in my core, not the "who" of who I am, but more the "what" of what I believe.  For a tongue talking, conservative Christian in the deep south, this is a big deal.  I've been out of church for at least 2 years and I'm just now feeling a yearning to return. Maybe I needed this time to find my faith, my REAL faith. Not the faith forced on me, but a faith I choose. A faith that fully believes the Bible, but also understands it was written by men and those men had agendas  A faith that understands the old testament was given to a single nation. Israel. And the new testament was given to the WORLD. To me. My faith that can accept it's ok to have your own thoughts on a subject, even when the entire church says those thoughts are wrong. Here it is, my evolving faith. It's flawed, ...